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This is a Poem I wrote after leaving the Anglican church in my Australian Far Left city

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Poem 1. Feeling faithfully Homeless  After Today's Moment of Heart crushing  of Trust Breaking In the Holy Temple    

To The Holy Son That died For Me And all Of Us I come to tonight As a Very Lost and Broken woman who strongly knows that despite my Heart shattering today that I have to cling to you Holy Trinity. I never Regretted a Visit To the Holy Temple But Today a Fast Running river in my Eyes that Wants to fall look ike a Rainfall To the Ground   of Regret while the pieces Of my Soul and my Heart the Centre of myself Is Falling apart and Iam Trying to Trust The Holy  Trinity And the Creator Of All Life And the Earth's and the Heaven and the Creatures on earth and the Holy Son that suffered Slashing And Lashings To his Temple and He Surrendered his Life On a Cross for all of Humanity's sins.as I told The staff member that Claims To Be Faithful That I have Bared My Soul to  in Deep Conversations we have Had From the Day we met after the USA Young Preaching And Faithful Man who was a well Respected Patriot that Was Violently and tragically Killed  that Inspired me to Fast Track my walk Of Faith In Life  to spend Some time  inside of the Holy Temple. I found A Anglican temple For Me I Went Inside and there Was the Faithful holy Staff Member and Man That I instantly Connected With and Our first Conversation Felt Like The Heavenly Father Was Working through Me to Open up More Sooner than I normally would Have as I Saw The Small poster  on the Entrance Wall About the Normally Secret Behind Closed Doors Hell that Costs the Lives of Sooo many women. I told the Faithful male member Staff Member That I have Been through  the Behind Closed Doors Hell with  my Earth Father that I should Be Able to Trust With my Safety. And  I wasn't aware Of This Mental and speech Pattern I gave everyone I spoke to about my earth dad's traumatic Treatment Of me that Pattern Of speech Was that My Dad's Mental Battle Of Traumatic Flashbacks PTSD The Reason why My Dad Pushed me around And made me Scared of Him. My church diaries.  And the Faithful  holy Staff Member and Man asked Me does It make it Easier for you to Cope with That saying that Your Dad's Mental Illness is Why he Was a Bully to you. And I was shocked that He Was able to Verbally In reach The deepest Part of My  mind and Heart so I went away and I thought about it And I came to the Life  changing colousion that I have to Surrender my Thought and Mental pattern Of saying My Earth father Pushed Me around Because of His Mental Illness. And That was Very Helpful I did Over time Bare My Soul To the Staff at this holy Temple By Emails and My voice. i told the Faithful Male staff  member The Long Personal Valley Of Trauma In my Past From My Behind Closed Doors Hell and the Knife Trauma  That I have went through At the Age Of 20 years Old and That Caused Me to Do a Ton Of self Heart  operation So that this Trauma doesn't Prevent Me from never entering a Church Again. And The Faithful Man Staff member in the Holy Temple Did Tell Me  that He thinks Iam a Interesting Person. so He Knows My Domestic Violence Part of my Testimony As To Why I Definitely know that I needed Faith In the Holy Trinity And The Temple of Prayer In the city. my church Diaries. Feeling Faithfully Homeless after today's moment of Heart crushing of Trust Breaking in the Holy Temple. Today  I Had Excitement In My Heart and My Mental  Sphere Because I wanted to tell  the Male faithful Holy Temple staff member About my Latest Revolution I have found in My ongoing Self Discovery Path That all My Life I was Told there Was something medically or mentally Wrong with Me and I was attached to Alot Of Australian Government pushed and approved Disability support Organisations That did Nothing for Me and I have Found that  All I needed Was   faith In the Holy Trinity But Today I do feel that male Holy Temple Staff Member shut the door in my Face And He Shattered the trust I thought We Had In pieces by Telling me that He Is No Longer Qualified To talk to Me as He Has Been and That I must chat to The Female Priest That Is In The Holy Temple Now Which I feel goes against Tradition. why did I ever Open Up my Soul to You Faithful holy Temple staff member in the first Place. I do Feel that a Shifting In the Roles of the Staff jobs in the Holy Temple Is Making the church Change. Iam Not sure If I belong there Anymore. my church diaries. I do Need To Pray For the holy Trinity to guide My Way Now As to What to do In this situation  Earlier Tonight I Read The Holy book and I read The Verse that Says That anyone That withholds kindness from a Friend  Forsakes The Fear of the Almighty but My Brothers are As undependaable as Intermittent Streams that OverFlow when Darkened by Thawing ice.  And I thought Of The Male Faithful my Church Diaries.feeling Faithfully Homeless after Today's moment  of the heart Crushing   of trust Breaking  In the Holy Temple