Ever since we moved I have been struggling with a sort of depression. It's a blend of an overall melancholy with feeling my heart torn in two with half of my children here and half back in our hometown, leaving behind my job, my church, my friends, feeling a loss as to what the Lord's plan is for me in all of this, intense nostalgia....
I don't want to feel this way and I do what I can to buck myself up.
This morning it is more intense than usual, so I turned to Scripture, picking up where I left off in 1 Peter. 1 Peter 2:15 says, "For so is the will of God, that by doing well you may put to silence the ignorance of foolish men:"
Would you say that we have a moral obligation as Catholics to do well? I don't mean toxic positivity and a false front. Verse 16 does go on to say, "As free, and not as making liberty a cloak for malice, but as the servants of God."
After reading that verse it kind of came down upon me that I have a moral obligation to live well in my current circumstance. That means doing my duty towards God and my family.
If you read on in the chapter, St. Peter tells his readers to be subject to their masters, not just to the good ones, but the difficult ones as well. Live well and live righteously even in difficult, suffering, and sorrowful situations.
That should be easy enough for me. It's not like I'm in a horrible situation. I'm not. The Lord planted me in a quiet little town, a quiet little neighborhood where I am safe and have things to do. He provided me with a good and holy church. I'm close enough to my hometown that if anything comes up I can be there in 2 hours, and even if I can't drive I can take an inexpensive train.
So, I am determined to live well in my current circumstance, giving God the Glory and Praise due Him.
1 Peter 2:11 Dearly beloved, I beseech you as strangers and pilgrims, to refrain yourselves from carnal desires which war against the soul.
My sorrows are real and are not sinful. They are normal, healthy reactions to sorrowful things. However, the carnal desire to wallow in self-pity, to blame, to be angry, to feel victimized by God, to be brat-mad that I'm not getting my way are sinful.
Verse 12, "Having your conversation good among the Gentiles: that whereas they speak against you as evildoers, they may, by the good works, which they shall behold in you, glorify God in the day of visitation."
There is good fruit in living well in your circumstances.