I'm asking for prayers...
I am only 20. One night after praying when I was about 13 I immediately was given this great urge and convction to serve God in the most sincere forms I could. My parents weren't very religious, so this wasn't necessarily a sentiment I was raised in. Though my extended family were practicing Protestants. I was involved in Protestant youth groups through out high school, my questions and comments to Pastor led to him taking an interest in what I had to say. Soon after joining, the Pastoral leader allowed me make and present my own 1 hour lectures when I was only 16 and 17. My desire to serve people grew to me having the desire to join Navy Special Forces following high school. I was in the recruiter office the day of my graduation going through the processes of enlistment. I had lost 50 pounds in a month in a half, running half marathons with near no food everyday to meet weight requirements and to match (somewhat) the rigor of Spec Ops training. In weeks leading to training, my heart began to have severe problems with my heart rate getting up to 190-200 BPM. I was taken out of the military, for safety of myself. The dream I had to serve, with John 15:13 playing in my head constantly, had left in the form of what I thought the conclusion of it was.
Through my teenage years I studied Catholicsim extensively (I read the Catechism, learned the lives of many Saints, and grew to learn about the Church Fathers) but wasn't allowed to enter a Catholic Church because of my family's opinions on the Church. Though I had intended for years to join once I got into the military.
Following the military disappointment I immediately began OCIA and I entered the Catholic Church this past vigil. I'm currently in a place where I am still longing as strong as ever to quench the thirst I have had since I was 13 to serve our Lord in such a devout way. I'm still studying our Faith, trying to grow in virtue and knowledge, am participating in my local parish and I volunteer to help social events. Yet... I feel something else is out there for me.
This is a long post, I would appreciate prayers. I don't want to be the person who says this given that I am a month old in my faith, but I can't deny the feeling I have; I've began talks with my Deacon about discerning Priesthood. I have 3 years before I can apply here in the Nashville diocese, but it's something we're currently discussing. I have also had thoughts of going to Law school following my undergrad studies, but everytime I pray I feel the urge to descend deeper into the discernment of Priesthood.
If you could pray for me, that no matter what my Lord wants of me, I am willing to say yes. Priesthood, lawyer, or whatever He wants of me. Also help pray for me to be silent and still listening for Him.